my point of view

Move on

2006-11-11T13:47:00.000+08:00

Ok i moved.

:)

no, not to pick up the pieces of thread... but i moved for, i need a change.

HAHAHAHAH.

link me, if you can

The long goodbye

2006-10-31T00:06:00.000+08:00

Hmm.

So long friends. This time, I guess, its really goodbye.

Im on HIATUS..
Be back after O's. Hopefully.

<3 ~~You dont even noe me, so just let me go.~~

Princess Hours

2006-10-29T19:32:00.000+08:00

Perhaps Love...

Shin Goon.. dont leave me ara-soh?

ph<3

And when im gone

2006-10-26T21:46:00.000+08:00

And when I'm gone, just carry on,
don't mourn rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice..
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling and I didn't feel a thing,
So baby don't feel my pain..
Just smile back

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wo you dian lei le.....

I'll never get over him

2006-10-18T10:28:00.000+08:00

I love the way when he looked into my eyes.
I love the way when he smile at me.
I love the way when we just had nothing to say to each other.
I love the way when he always makes me happy/laugh in 1001 ways.
I love the way he always console me.
I love the way he hug me.
I love the way he tells me he loves me everytime without fail.
I love the way he came to my house in the middle of the night to pass me famous amous cookies.
I love the way, he make me love him.

FARK.

I'll never gonna get over him...
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*cry buckets of tears*

Grads and mad jacks

2006-10-14T19:48:00.000+08:00

ok. so i've graduated.

GRADUATED!!!!

:'( shucks. four years passed by soooooooo effing fast. Im gonna miss everyone. Yes. Eveyone. The one that went through with me be it ups or downs, the one that broke my heart, the ones that make me smile and fart at their faces, the one that i need so share my experience with, the one that never fails to crack me up, the one that saw/hear me cry, the one that put up with me despite my temper, the one, the one.. Oh its EVERYONE!

Here are some of the random pictures of graduation.

I cant upload too many pics bcos either i took it with Fiqa or the picture is ugly. Cant upload with Fiqa in it cos she claim she's fugly. Bleargh.

Happy graduation people. Will use adobephotoshop to edit the pictures DEN i'll upload it. (:

Lovelies Bunnies and A heartbreaker

2006-10-10T20:21:00.001+08:00

Just when you thought your world has collapsed, 4 great frens came along to help you heal your wounds.

Just when you thought, you can never make it, the 4 great frens were there to push you.

Just when you thought you rather give up, the 4 great frens picked you up time and again.

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I am fortunate to have you people (you know who you are) in my life. Thank you. Thank you for making me laugh, giggle, excited, silly, bubbly, and girly again. I can never make it, if it werent because of the 4 of you.

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To you:
Nope I dont hate you. Nope I dont despise you. Nope I didnt regret it. Nope I didnt blame you. BUT.. Yes Im a bit sad. Yes I am a bit disappointed. Yes Im still getting over you. Yes, maybe I still love you. Yes maybe I dont love you. Why did you have to leave? Why did you make me feel for you? Why did it hurts so bad? Why am I still thinking of you? Why am I doing this? Why?

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They asked me: If he were to come back to you again, will you take him?
My answer: I bet he doesnt even think/love/care/miss me. So the question is rhetorical. 'Nuff said.

Im ok. Im super ok.
But I wish I was excellent again.

Time to move on

2006-10-02T20:23:00.000+08:00

Everyone tells me: FIZA, MOVE ON HONEY!!!

Yes sir/ma'am. Im trying you know. Its damn diffucult la when you believe he was THE ONE, but he turns out to be just like the rest. Oh well oh well. My dear friend told me this: What past is the past. No point looking back. Accept it and take it to your stride.

Thanks thanks. A million thanks. I promise I'll be bubbly soon ok?

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I just need time to adjust. Thanks for being there for me dear friends. :)

i wish you could

2006-09-30T17:59:00.000+08:00

Life will be simplier if there was no heartbreak, wouldnt it? They say loving someone means you should be ready to experience the heartache and happiness at the same time. But i was just not ready to experience the heartache.

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Sorry for being too emotional. The thought of my heart breaking, brings tears to my eyes. Fiqa said Im giving a fake smile? Am I? Well thats bcos i depended on you. You were my sunshine, my pillar of strength, my everything.

But i guess, I just lost everything, including you.

You cant make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realise your worth.

the break up

2006-09-28T19:35:00.000+08:00

"Giving away a heart can hurt ... having a broken heart can be life threatening, even to the strongest people. But, receiving one is the greatest gift."

*Deep breath*
So, all those time, it was just a merry-go-round.

am i that gullible?
"Heartbreak brings us immense pain and suffering but in reality we must realize that it brings us one step closer to the one we are destined to be with."

Its time

2006-05-27T21:18:00.000+08:00

Malay O level is in 1 days timmmmmmmmmmee.. Its been hell having M.T lessons all the way from morning to afternoon for the pass 3-4 days.. but I've learnt to live with it. It was enrichning-, no it was A GOOD WAY FOR ME TO CLINCH MY KEPUJIAN (DISTINCTION), once and for all. I hope so too, very much. Hah.

Been on cold war with Daddy-O ever since I got back the results. I mean. Really. This is outragous. Blaming squarely on me when you jolly well know that I've tried my effing best in all the subjects. Of course I was quite distracted during that point of time, but hell, I did manage to scrape a good report okay. You will never understand what Im feeling now. Oh well. Fine. I'll prove it to you so you can shut be proud of me. I show you, dearest dad. Oh shuck. I dont resent you. I know you only want the best from me. Certainly i will make you proud.

Lucks to everyone whose taking the M.T paper this coming Monday. Oh by the way. I will be on Hiatus becasue i need to study and achieve a bettttterrrr report card. Sigh. Oh well.

Stangre as it sounds, but you're replaced.

The happiest day

2006-05-19T19:53:00.000+08:00

Ok. I noe this will sound really hao-lianing..... But you noe what? I got the prestige SPF badge!!! *jiggle*screams*run*jumps*fart*burp* How cool is that?

Well, for those of you who dont know, SPF bagde (Singapore Police Force) are only be given to the best of the bestssss (throughout the whole NPCC of Singapore). (Oh yea. Im rubbing salts to the wound). But, however, *add more conjuctions*, the approval of those who will get the badges lies on the hands of the Head Quaters 'people'. So, I am effing lucky-cool-fortunate to be able to get that bagde. YEAYEA! *do silly dance* Ehhhh wait. Im not the only best of the bestsss, larr. But Tanglin Sec got 7 of them, including me of cos! :)

*drum rolls* They are:

NADIAH, FIQA, SHEENA, XIU LAI, ME, HIDAYU and PAULINE!

Hee. We are currently the same standard with New Town Sec who is a gold unit. Yes. Im so proud of my school can? :)

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Oh. Aside with the happy mood, my result is erm. No good. Totally sucks. But I improved in my English and E.Maths. And im, how do you put it. Consistence is getting a ** for M.L.

Well, thats all. To end this post. I shall qoute Colin Wong, 4e3: Im feeling dumb. Study so hard still get stupid result.

Fun with the gals

2006-05-17T20:11:00.000+08:00

Yes. We went out on Tuesssdayyyy.

Actually, the original plan was, Twins, Farah, C-tea, Adilah and Leila to go to Bugis Street, eat hawker centre food and den go library BCOS all of us jakun nvr go there before. Tup Tup Tup, only twins, farah and c-tea in the end go. Nonetheless, it was fun like hell.

We went to cineleisure to watch the Voice bcos C-tea cant stop whining unless we catch that movie. We acutally wanna go Escape tau..!! Hurhurhur. Well, the Voice is an interesting movie, only that the ending is stoopid and not understandable. I give it 3 out of 5 bites. Cos, the effect was cool and it scares the hell out of me. Oh. Before that, we went to eat at BK and i decided to play a prank on one of the workers. But the angels among us decided against it. No fun! Den den den, we go to Esplanade.

It was, how do you phrase it. Breath-taking! Ah-uh. The funny part was, this 4 byos were following us for no reasons. Lol. Its like everywhere we go, there they are, waiting, looking. Maybe they wanna take a breather too, who cares? Haha. We cam-whored, we had funnn.. Oh man, i wish i can relish it all over again.

It was a all-girls day and i enjoyed it very much. Thanks girls. It was funnnnnnnnnnn with ya'll. Lets hope all our exams result are COOL too. :)

im walking on sunshine

2006-05-15T19:28:00.000+08:00

Pardon my absence. Its been a whole-fucking-damnation week.

*jump*scream*jiggle*kick*fart*

Im finally free from mugging... Hurrah Hurrahhhhhh. Okay. Truth to be told, exams are pretty cool because i can reflect how dumb i am for not answering those simple questions. No kidding. I willingly let the markers penalise me because i am PLAIN careless. Well, at least to me.

The scariest thing is that i've been dreaming some crazy dreams.. (nono. not wet dreams, you damned fool) I like... flunk all my examinations. ARGHH. *let out steam* So scary.

So, to reward me for all my effort in mugging, we gfs decided to go out on Tues, after the last paper. Didnt plan to go anywhere, but maybe just chilled out? I cant wait. This dream is getting out of control.

I need a break. Seriously.

the abruptness of life

2006-04-26T21:07:00.000+08:00

Its was on 15 April. The first time and the last time i met her. Her name, or what people used to call her: Jackpot/Wak Oi. She died today, 26 April 06 at 12pm. That is exactly 11 days since the meet up.

That was the day me and mum met him, to buy some plastic thingy for eldest sis wedding. Now she wont be able to come to the wedding. What makes it even more sad is that her youngest daughter, just entered a prestige JC. You know they say, you lose some, you gain some.

I hope Allah rest her in peace. May her soul be blessed.

Quiz

2006-04-16T14:58:00.000+08:00

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise!Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro.If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you.You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtfulBut you also haven't stopped thinking of yourselfYou're the perfect blend of independent and caringYou're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

Are You a Good Girlfriend?

I was bored. dont blame me.

The Mood Swing and those 3 words.

2006-04-16T12:50:00.000+08:00

A friend told me, his girlfriend is throwing tantrums again.

Do girls really get mood swings as often as it could?

Im having one right now. Let me get this done and over with. Its been awhile since i am so deliciously mad. I noe im trying to be very difficult here. Yes. Im so sick and tired of answering that question time and again. Dont you ever think that the 3 words are so over-rated and so overly used? Sigh. You think by uttering those words, it can solve many unhappiness? Do you even know the meaning of those 3 words? Im so fed up and worked up by the stress thats already been accumilating in my head. Why cant you be an understanding soul and let me be?

Sometimes, all that i ever need is some space and time for me alone. Can you grant me that wish for this period of time?

But sometimes i dont like to feel alone. But then again, I need time to concentrate on my studies.

Gah. This is making me so-ever-stress.

Lover and Friends

2006-04-14T12:47:00.000+08:00

It really hurts to see your own love one get hurt.

I noe, I see, I feel and I hear.

I hope you take care. I've been there done that. Break ups are never easy, believe me. Dont listen to sad love songs, it doesnt help. Really.

Couples make up, THEN break up. Whats the point?

Nonetheless, I hope your fairytale ends, b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l-l-y.

Tunggulah, harap-harap ia berbaloi. <3

Hiak Hiak Haik

2006-04-10T19:04:00.000+08:00

i love my new skin. im so loving it.

:)

Hurrah Hurrah..

Damn. Im supose to do lit and FnN. :(

Slack Day.

2006-04-10T18:44:00.000+08:00

*drumrolls* Happy 16th birthday to Nurleila Abdullah! (: Hee. Hope you got what you wanted? Stay chirpy. peace.

*throw confenti and all that glitter* Happy 16th birthday to my dearest and loveable best friend Saiful Islam Matthew Lewis Mohalland (as qoute from his galfwen).. I hope that you and her will stay forever. Thats my birthday wish to youuuuuuuuu.. (aiya. you also wont be reading this. harhar.)

(: What can i say, you keep me happy and content with life.

Its the pc. They make my homeworks 10times easier. <3

The Affair

2006-04-08T19:57:00.000+08:00

Sigh. Im pissed. I dont know why. Everything seem to ticked me off. I try not to be so hot-tempered, but it is hard.

I know you didnt want it lar, but you dont have to sound so bitchy rite? Ok maybe im being overly too sensitive, but you're acting like her....... Sigh. I dont wish this to change the state of our friendship. I really dont. But.. Maybe, this will be over and we can resume to our nice-nice talks?

Thanks, girl. You're always there whenever I need you. :)

Is it hard to come in terms with your inner feelings? I cant seem to be agreeing to it. Am i too practical? Or am i just.........

The days are outnumbered. We left like 40someting days to GCE 'O' Level Malay Paper. *scream, yell and jump of the building*

Im dead.

Those Days

2006-04-05T19:22:00.000+08:00

- I feel contented, happy and full.
- I dont know why. Must there be a reason to be happy and in an uplifting spirit?
- I love my life. I intend to live it to the fullest.

Warning, Im just lying. All the above is just lies, that I use to comfort myself whenever I feel the negative vibes. Yikes.

To Fiqa: Take it easy babe. In life there is always the ups and downs. Hopefully, you will come out of your negativity, and look on the bright side of life.. *join in the tune*

Thanks for the chocolates. :)

100 steps to emo

2006-04-03T20:14:00.000+08:00

Just random thoughts that's running through my mind.

1) In life there will always be the ups and downs. Im at the 'down' now.

2) I only have AT LEAST 4 good frens that i can talk shits, throw tantrums, bitch, scold and debate about almost anything under the sun. Thats's sad, really.

3) Im currently facing with stress and pressure I exert to myself. Who doesnt want to excel, tell me?

4) Mending my already broken heart. They say its the 100 steps to being emo. Whatever that's suppose to mean.

5) Something really need to be done to some people who just wait and wait for something to be done and laments all about it again and again and again...

6) Im loosing weight effortlessly. Currently weight 52 kg.

7) I must stop swearing. Really. Stop me someone. @#$%%^!. WOOPS.

8) A maths is a pleasure. Heh. I finally know how to do Differentiation. And so it is kicking balls. :) But i left 7 more chapters to revisr before my upcoming mid year.

9) Im not in love, really.

10) Despite everything, I still keep coming back to you. And i wonder why?

**Sports day is coming. This THURSDAY. I hope everything goes very well and that my beloved 4e3 will give me more support. :)

Just not in the mood to be overyjoy. Im just put up a facade. Oh btw, happy blated April's Fool Day.

Bukit Timah Hill cum The Cut so Deep

2006-03-26T20:37:00.000+08:00

26-03-06

First and foremost, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED 1st SISTER!!! :) May happiness be with you, always.

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Today we went to Bukit Timah Hill to hike again. Yes. But this is more super fun than the previous one. Because, only 7 of us go, and mostly are girls. (except for Fa-ge, but hell, he's fun too.. Being our photographer for the day. Teehee.) Dee, being the leader and all, have to jot down notes bla bla and whatnots la. Hah. Then then, we were at the submit and the bloody hornets were running after us for dont know what reason. Me, Sheena, Iqa, Dee and Shak screamed out lungs out WITH people (read: a lot of humans) around us. It was embarrasing but it was super fun.

Then then then, we took a picture with this baby called: JJ. He is sooooooo cuteee. And he doesnt cry when we surround him. Very brave ah. And yes, super cute than the JJ in our school. HAH! Well, the day ends with us playing the obstacles like mad. Pictures, I believe will be uploaded in Fiqa's blog. So read her for more info. Hee.

Yes, to all the answers to your doubts. Yes, to all the questions formed in your head. Im disappointed, sad, melancholic because of that fact. Its hard to forget and forgive. The cut so deep, I almost bleed.

And, today is the first time Pauline revealed the _________ with ________. Haha. The other side of the story.

Last but not least, tonight i aint your girl.

The Rambles of Life

2006-03-22T22:06:00.000+08:00

22-03-06

Today, was shitty. We got banded for English. Yes. Im so ~~fucking~~ dissapointed. I dont think i deserve to be in that slot, but you know what, maybe that is my standard. Its hard to believe. But i hate the feeling of the insecurities i have now.

Moving on, I learnt new chinese, or i should say Cantonese phrase. Hah. Well, i wont post it here cos it is totally very vulgar. And i am such a demure girl, i dont use that type of language. Haha..

Oh Oh. Please go to this website. www.humanforsale.com. Yey. I went there and I know what I'm worth. $1,481,989. Haha. Well, Colin is still the top, but beating Xue Yi and the rest are so fun. Haha. I waaay expensive than them. Hurrah Hurrah..

And I read this burning question from somewhere (someone's blog): Is it a crime for females to shave their pubic hair?

Ok. Now you tell me the ans. HAHA. Im so speechless.

~~Damn, im suppose to do my homework. Oh well.~~

The Whirlwind of Life

2006-03-20T19:54:00.000+08:00

20-03-06

It was the most tiresome week i ever had. Emotions of turmoil came gushing and took control of the situation. (Crap. i think this is so purple prose..)

My uncle in KL died. And he was killed. Yes. This is the first time in my family history that someone related to me died because he was killed. Goosebumps, i had. Im actually emotionless. I just hope, like fiqa said in her blog, that he is given justice and the killer will be caught.

amen.

Oh by the way. I caught The Shaggy Dog. i give it 3.5 bites out of 5. the show was quite corny but i laughed my ass off. and this is the first time i went to cineleissure e.cinema level 9. the place was uber cool. ( i noe pathethic rite.. hahahaha..) and i was freezing my butt there and no one offered me a piece of their clothers. GRRR. oh well.

Sigh. i've began to gain weight again.

oh, and thanks for the movie treat.

Campfire at Jurong East

2006-03-12T23:06:00.000+08:00

12-03-06

Today is kicking balls man. We went to the Campfire at Jurong East there. And get this, I dont know why? But i saw our Prime Minister there. So it must be a biggie there. Lol.

Nonetheless, we had our tits shaking and balls jiggling. It was hilarious i tell you. We were practically the only school that is super hyper and all the leaders crowd around us. Yeah man. We are so loveable. Hahaaa..

Anihoos, after that, we went to the fun fair near the Jurong East MRT station. We went to the Mr Ringo there. :) UBER COOL man... The spinning was soooooooooo spinning.. HEH! Try it before its too late!! :] (cost $4 per person)

Yes. Finally am able to catch a movie. :) WOOPEEEDOO~~

Stress

2006-03-09T22:31:00.000+08:00

Im having mix emotions. Tomorrow will be getting back our report book. Wish me lucks. I am prepared to have a long longggggggggg nag from both of my parents. Sigh.

Im still date-less. I wanna watch DORM on Monday? Most of my friends are either broke, pak tor or they cant make it (got course, etc etc). So it sucks being the only one that is fucking free.

Im pissed and moodless. Sigh.

The Reality

2006-03-07T17:50:00.000+08:00

07-03-05

Reality hit me like a bolt of lighting today. I finally realised where i stood. The tiny me against the BIG MIGHTY OCEAN.

In case you all are wondering what i scored for my term 1, here are the results:
L1R5 = 22
L1R4 = 18

(im not that stupid to show off my pathethic grades and marks.)

Yes. Although it looksss good. I have deproved. I actually nearly crieddddddddd with HDY today in the cadet room. I used to score L1R5 = 20 and L1R4 = 18. What the hell happened to me? ARGHH. At this rate Im going, Im never gonna get what i want.

Oh well, that asides, Im actually in the mood to party. (Yes. After the sadness is driven away by some angel who gave me some wisdom outside toilet. thanks girrl..) I want to watch a movie. Anyone wanna pei me?

Hit me, or simply call me on my celly. =) Have a nice day people!

My Gawd

2006-03-06T21:24:00.000+08:00

--> Updated!

Okay, i was browsing around the blogworld. When i realised that, I am acutally AWED with the fact that their English is acutally improving while mine, sucks like shit.

This is the reason why i love speaking in GOOD ENGLISH, but apparently some students in Tanglin just dont understand good english. Too CHIM, according to them.

New Resolution: Hang out with cool kids that speaks good english. Heh. Im that evil. Tralala..

I think im moving slowly towards the pinnacle of excelence. Hahaha.

Slowy realising that you're just not worth it. :)

Seen your true colours

2006-03-06T21:04:00.001+08:00

06-03-06

First and foremost, HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY DEAR JAHZ!!! All the best in whatever you wanna achieve. <3

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Its funny how someone could say those words, but actually react the totally opposite. I cant believe I actually believe all the shits you've said. Am i just too gullible, or just too plain dumb to fall into the pit? History has repeat itself. Because of this, i flunked all my subjects. Yes. Quite shocking but hell, im not blaming you. I guess i played a part too.

Ok enough of this thingy, its time to move on. Only time will heal the wound, the cut that is so deep. If you think im talking about you, think again. You're not the only one that is part and parcel of my life.

Heh, it ends tonight. I shall bury this misery and get on with life. If you can do it, why cant i?

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Hurrah Hurrah. Im going to Kallang this Wednesday. There is some prize presentation for BADMINTON/TENNIS ATHELETES. I cant believe i am actually excited for this. Haha. Oh well, it reminds me of the Class 95's advertisment. Tsk Tsk.

Ok, thats all. i need to finish up my assignment. GAH! Malay project!! @#$%^!!

The best i ever had

2006-03-05T18:56:00.000+08:00

5-03-06

Nyeh.

Its time to move on, no? I'll summond my courage to let bygones be bygones. I'll promise i buck up. I'll promise i do well next time. And i'll promise, next time i wont shed a tear.

I had enough of heartbreaks. (Oh my god. I sound sooo emo can? damn the hades)

Oh by the way, why does it seems that guys (that i sooo do not know that well) come and find me for some love advices? Do i look as if Im a doctor love? Hur hur hur.

~~Im myself got my heart broke too, dear friends.~~

Enjoy your day people!

The smile the tears, im not me

2006-03-05T15:22:00.000+08:00

5-o3-06

I cried to sleep today. I dont know why. I feel so sad, demoralise and all those negativity. Im not me. Seriously, i feel that i've lost my touch.

What's wrong with me. Im not at all sure. Im being wayy too emotional. I dont like when im all touchy-touchy. I feel so weak. I need substance. I need distractions from all this melocholic mode that i am in.

ARgGH. IM SO SAD. period. I need elightment from someone.

~~i miss you. but do you even notice my absence?~~

Kiss my ass, Aaron. Its over.

2006-02-27T20:14:00.000+08:00

27-02-06

Nyehea... I lost kgs, but i keep gaining them back? or it is that the needle of the weighing machine is playing a trick on me? Oh well, i ate soooooooooo little. Believe it or not. And there is a diff with my body. I think i need to wear a belt? The school skirt is too lose can? *boast*

Sigh. Im not sure whether i believe you lei. I feel like im being used. Dang. I should be thinking about this.

It aint my fault. And, solely, its yours. *nods*

GASPS!! Tuesday, which is 2mrw, IS COMMON TEST DAY FOR MATHS!! EGADSS~~

Cool

2006-02-26T19:31:00.000+08:00

26-02-06

Eh.

I just realise. This skin, my time and date is at the bottom. LOL. i mean the bottom of the bottom two post. IF you get what i meant.

Oh by the way, I shouldnt be blogging!!

Grrr..

I dont care abt what you think

2006-02-26T19:06:00.000+08:00

26-02-06

I dont care if you think my skin is ugly. I dont care. I think its pretty.

But do you have to fuck my whole sunday up? Dammit la. Just leave me alone okay. Im suffering from one of those hormones. Nope. Its not PMS, not like you. Just another diff thing okay.

If you are mad, u like to be left alone, dont you? So, the same principle lies with me. Do you have to keep bugging me, while i cant even bug at you? Talk about equality and respect. You want everyone to listen to you and take you for what you are. Now why dont you take me for what my taste is like?

Everything and anything just have to follow your way, isnt?

Well, im sick of that. That's a crock of a bullshit.

Hiatus

2006-02-15T20:07:00.000+08:00

HIATUS BEBEH!

I'll be RIGHT BACK.

Once i get my life right back on the track.

See ya pipools~

Tired

2006-02-15T19:58:00.000+08:00

Eeeks. Happy Valentine's Day people.

Thanks to all who gave me the present and the hugs. Really aprreciate it alot.

Im going to leave Tanglin this year...

Siiighhh.....

Sheesh

2006-02-13T23:04:00.000+08:00

Im so effing stress...

STRESSSTRESSSTRESSSTRE

Valentine's Day

2006-02-12T14:16:00.000+08:00

Ohmigosh. The freaky friday, they name. Its so surreal can? I feel like as if Im the one receiving the result slip. Super uber scared la.. Anyway,

Congrats to Kenny for getting the unexpected 3 distinction, Aaron for scoring mighty o' high and Xiao Ying for being brave. Chill ya. I noe its hard but life has to go on.

On the lighter note, Valentine's Day is nearing and all my peers are rushing to get the gifts for the gift exchange on Tuesaday itself. Hmm. Im coverd with flour and eggs from head to toe. I hope it will turn out rite. I hope Bjorn and the Special Project Agent will have a successful event on Tuesday. Not to mention you have extraordinary help from Shikin and Hidayu who are making the fake-fakey flowers.

Oh dang. From 3 now, 4? What the hell... Ehem Ehem, you better tell me okies? IF not im gonna prob you until you are mad enough and accidentally spill it.

OH BTW,

Focus on 14-02-06?! #$%^&*@!!

Stress~

2006-02-07T00:06:00.000+08:00

JEEEZ.

I've been rushing alot of homework these days. Is it me or is it that the teachers are giving wwaaaaaaay too much of demanding work?

Focus starting like 2mrw? Damn.

AND PLS STOP STOP SAYING ME N THAT GUY CAN? i just treat him as a friend lor.. hurhurhur..

ok bye. the bed's calling.

Champions and Confusion

2006-02-05T10:01:00.000+08:00

Here are the brieft updates of my oh-so-boring life.

Camp was hell of a fun. JACARANDA is the CHAMPION. and we are leading by 34 points. Karova came in second with 19 points. So things are looking great i say.

Mr Teo CNY party is great. I did the throw-high-high noodles? I think. So cool. Then we played Taboo for 1 and a half hour. Sheeshness.

Im the campcraft competition vice-captain. Sighh.. Too much responsibilities la.. :S im getting crazy soon. (exco la, house captain la, welfare head, and the list goes on. im tired... sighhh.)

That's all. Now hit me with taggies.

Quiz Time..Not

2006-01-31T13:18:00.000+08:00

Seven qualities I want in a potential boyfriend/girlfriend:
- mature!! (hahaha)
- very understanding
- open-minded
- love me for who i am not.
- always be himself
- caring
- similar to my dad??? (lol lol)

Seven things that scare me:
- Death
- judgement day
- losing my hp
- losing those i love
- broken hearted
- isolation
- humiliation

Seven random songs at the moment
- Best I ever Had by Veritcal Horizon
- Relaku Pujuk by Spider
- Dont cha by pussycat dolls
- Boulevard of Broke Dreams by Green Day
- Im sUpposed to Die tonight by 50 cent
- Feel Good inc by Gorilaz
- I love you.. You love me by Barney and Friends??

Seven things I like the most:
- myself
- white chocos (if possible)
- taking neoprints
- cam whoring
- novels throw them here!!
- sleep
- laugh

Seven important things in my bedroom:
- computer
- my bed
- my hp charger
- my clothes
- dressing table!!
- the radio
- fiqa's madness

Seven random facts about me:
- i have senget leg.. (altho not obvious)
- i am kan chong queen.. kuakuakua
- i can fart anytime? harharhar
- i tend to hold grudges very very often (one of Gemini's traits)
- i cant sing. (for real)
- im quite sensitive?? (ya.. i am?!!)
- i have food cravings almost every minute!

Seven things I plan to do before I die:
- get married
- have babies
- lotsa money
- eat and shit
- ask for forgivenness
- travel arnd the world
- go to haj primilage

Seven things I can do:
- breakdance
- multi-task
- swear non-stop
- watch the same movie for a hundredth times!
- eat like there's no tomorow
- yoga (abit only. thanks to my hp..)

Seven things I say the most:
- really?
- erm..
- f*ck la
- shiallah
- abih? / pastu??
- 'sup?

Seven celebrity crushes:
- shawn yue
- jehan ( one of the best malaysian actor!!)
- utt
-fauzie laily
- fudgie
- adam brody
- brad pitt

Seven people I want to do this too:
- jahz (hehe)
- nonie
- colin
- siti
- candidaa
- aarti
- jia qi

Fatso

2006-01-31T13:07:00.000+08:00

All i ever do this holiday 'saeson' is eat, eat, eat, shit, shit, and sleep.
Im getting fatter. Yes. All those boost of getting thinner. Ahhh. Dream on la, iza.

I cant believe u drop a bomb like that thru sms. Cant we just be friends? Like we used too? Before all this raa-raa thing happened? Sometimes, i miss my quiet life.

And YOU, you gotta give BEFORE they sent me THE letter. If they do, i dont know what im gonna explain to mama, except the truth of cos. ~~lost $23o, yeah right.~~

PMS hit me. So be nice.

bz bz gal

2006-01-28T15:00:00.000+08:00

Alas, a time to blog and a time to reflect on myself..

Why do teachers keep bothering me? argghh. its time FOR me to settle down and do my stuffs aiyt? Damn busy. And i still need to go for a leadership camp? @#$%%&!! I spent half my life attending all the leadership camps. Sighh..

Aniways, Investiture is in 1 week time, that is to say, everything can be plan out on time. And I WILL step down after 1 or 2 mths time. Im super busy and i dont have shits to entertain all day. NCO camp is in March. Finally, will be able to relax abit from np.

I plan to let go all strings by the end of April. Im sorry. My time concerns my future you see.

Ok. time to get back to my PILES of homework.

I wish

2006-01-22T16:55:00.000+08:00

I wish I wanst an Exco Comm in the Student Councillor.

I wish i wasnt the House Captain for Jacaranda

I wish, I didnt have anything to my name.

I wish I wanst weak.

I wish. I wish.

I wish, i was just a plain ugly lil girl.

I will be on HIATUS.
I wanna concentrate on my studies. I guess, Im shutting this blog down.

House Captain

2006-01-22T15:38:00.000+08:00

What the hell. I cant believe it. I am the house captain? Shit. That means I need to hold the house meeting, no? Oh btw, the assistant house capatain is Terence. Blue house is under NPCC cadets. Eeeks. Oh my godd. I think i have a stage fright??

Why do you always have to take everything seriously? I just treat you as a friend you know.. Sighh.. I dont intent to have a relationship, not now, never now. I guess i played apart too. But i know when to stop, but u didnt. What worries me is that, you always get the wrong meaning of what im trying to say.

Nanyang Poly open house was damn shiok i must say. It was organise, very. I like the place. ALOT. But the course i want to take is not there. So boohoo.. Singapore poly was ok. Good free gifts. Drinks and Ice-cream. And the tour guide is damn funny. Haha.

Now, its Ngee Ann turn before i make the final choice. Hmm.

Pressure

2006-01-17T20:36:00.000+08:00

Egads.

Days are bad. And i counted. Less than 267 days can? I cant jiggle no more. I need to run. The 'final' round. But it seems that my leg is on the edge. Perhaps i should take a rest.

But what if I am left behind? Will there be someone to pull me up and move me?
Im in dire need for motivation. I need reality. I need to get out of this comfort zone, or so i say.

Will you help me?

Stress

2006-01-15T14:02:00.000+08:00

The stress is overkilling me...! Not to mention the pressure ALL the teachers exerted on us. Boohoo. Gimme back my sec 3 life. Sigh.

Test test and more test. And also all the Ten Yrs series qns.. -tears-
I need some brain booster.

Life has been boring except some melodrama happen during training. Haha. Oh, since i mention it, I screw up my fancy drill. Sighhh. Let the past pass. I hope lots of sec 1 signed up. Camps, and more camps this year. And i bet i cant attend it due to my parents way of thinking: 'concentrate on ur o level. stop ur activities'. Dude, i need a way to de-stress.

Heavy loads coming my way next week. I cant understand why we still need to do projects. Can paper and pen do the trick?

Under the hot sun

2006-01-07T21:35:00.000+08:00

Sigh. Im getting darker by the days.. All thanks to the training for Sec 1 Orientation. Blue-blacks, swollen wrist all have happily landed on my hands and legs. And not forgetting the sun that is so mighty bright that i wish i was holding an umbrella.

Today we had a talk with Guo Hua. It was uber cos I finally know what life likes after JC or Poly. What do i like? I do not know. But i do admire him cos he is so bloody damn smart. And he told us a trick or two to get an A/B3 for maths. Will do it.

"Choose where you wanna go. Where do i wanna go? Most people take up course that they eventually dont like." And again, What do i like?

I like writting, talking.. Any course suits me?

**Guo Hua, gimme ur brain. And ur Masters too, pls!

Absence

2006-01-05T22:18:00.000+08:00

Oh god. Its been hell. Worse actually.

Dammit la sey. All the stress, the pressure. Im turning crazy. But its been GREAT at the same time. Some highlights: Got best teachers, Sec 1 erm ok la... Mr Tham my co-form teacher, MALAY O LEVEL IS LIKE LESS THAN 4 mths.

ok. this is my shit.........................................

Not sorry

2005-12-26T19:54:00.000+08:00

Im not sorry for hurting you.
You hurt me too.
The wounds will heal, but the scars remain.

Its not that I dont accept him or whatsoever, it just happen to fast la dammit. I need time to adapt him, to adapt the reality that you now got someone. I need time to accept him. Accept him, like i need time to accept Nazzy-B. Dont blame me and say: "Thanks for the sisterly support." I am ever so thankful that you've found someone out there to share, to laugh, to fart, to joke around with. Yes. But, lets just say Im neutral o-kay.

And if you, no the other you who is reading this.. Please do take care of my sister ok. Dont break her heart. She may seem strong, but deep down she is fragile. I hope you do treasure her. And all the best in your relationship.

Ohh.. 2nd Sis bought Motorola RAZR V3 (pink) and I changed my specs. Harhar. Ok haolianing. Hehehe. Btw,
Im on
HIATUS larr..

Miss me k. I'll miss you loads..(the bed lar. ;])
Be back on Thurs. Till then, See ya~

Going away.

2005-12-24T15:08:00.000+08:00

Sheeshneess. After 3 days or so, then you decided to tell me? Thanks. Thats a bundle of joy. I dont know whether to support or not.. Dont ask me why. Sighhh..

Will be on Hiatus lar.. Got camp on Tues till Thurs. Npcc camp cum Fancy Drill Practice. I tell you, i look so dark.. There goes all my effort of trying to be 'white' when school reopen. But nonetheless, am so excited about the camp. The first eversince we took over, no? Hahha..

I am not doing geography. I have no idea how to do that. ~~I am so like dead?~~ But i think i just want to focus on literature since it is a humans subj too. Hmmm. Geog sucks la..

Ok la. Thats all..
Shit lar. A tit for a tit, a tat fora tat. I'll rmbr this day.

Meanie me

2005-12-23T19:41:00.000+08:00

Am i that mean? Terlalu mengikut perasaan ke aku ni?
I shall try to be nice la.... I try la k...

Anyhoos, today was a freaking asshole day. Only 5 NCo's came. Like what the hell. All big talk siakk.. Iskh cinonek ni sumeeeeee.. And the cadets came like one by one NOT on time. I guess its tradition ah. Sumek janji melayu btol. So me and nadiah kinda waited until 3? Where we got so tired and went home. Only like 3 come after we called them to meet us? Like helloooo.. WE are also tired. U all carry baton, while us riffle... And even the Admin is missinggg. OVERSLEPT? HURHUR. Ur bdae i buy u alarm clocks okay? Then again, maybe not. U're rich what..

ARghhH. And sorry councilors, wasnt able to make it. :( Really sorry i know you are short handed. Sighhhhhhhhh....

He's not asking too much

2005-12-22T19:15:00.000+08:00

He's not asking too much you know. All he wanted was to see his daughters at home when he goes back. You could still go out, but not so ALWAYS. Get what i mean?

He's not asking you to be perfect. And its the fact that he loves you more than any of us. Thats true although you cant really measure love. Yala, you were the brightest, the smartest and of cos the adik of the house. How come you turn to become like this. OKAY FINE HE IS YOUR FUCKING FIRST LOVE BUTTTTTTTTTT you dont have to outcast us you know. I mean, is he the only ONE that can make you feel happy?

Im like so fucking shock when you said, "Tell me again why do i have sisters?" to THAT GUY on the phone. DO YOU KNOW THAT ME AND FIQA CRIED OUR LUNGS OUT. YOU KNOW? OH WELL YOU DONT KAN. TK NK SISTERS PE. MANER ADE NAK. YOU ONLY WANT THAT BLOODY GUY WHAT. RYT??? RYT!!! WELL YOU KNOW WHAT, YOU CAN HAVE HIM ALL YOU WANT AHHH EH!!!!!!!!! GOD, I TOT YOU CAN FEEL US SISTERS WERE CONCERN ABOUT YOU, BUT NO. HAVE HIM LA HAVE HIMMMMMMM..

but you know what, after what happen, i aint gonna accept him to the family. No, no way. MANER DE JANTAN YG OH-SO-MANLY CALL POMPAN SAMPAI KOL 3 PAGI HUH? BURUNG HANTU PE.

im so fucking piss offf. yes. if i ever see him, im gonna kick his dick. Then he can become OH-SO-MANLY. HAHAHA. NOW THATS SARCASTIC.

GRRRRR~

Emotional Crisis

2005-12-19T21:08:00.000+08:00

What a rollercoster.

Eh. My phone is better than ur son's phone okay. AT LEAST its latest. AT LEAST i paid my own bills and the phone. AT LEAST my dad can afford 3 new series phone in one short. AT LEAST he got money. AT LEAST he never show off. AT LEAST i am not tin kosong make lots of noise. Grrr. Sometimes, i just hate ur guts. Really. I mean... Ahh. Never mine. U'll never learnt from ur mistakes, no? thats sad.

Omg. He is gay. Okay no offence. Im like soooooooooooo shock. I mean. Ok fine. You're a pretty boy, but u so jiwang la. Awak jgn cam gini lar. Kite pon tk jiwang sngt. Asal awak jiwang ni. Kiter terbahak2 sey bace profile awak. Tapi serius la. Its like so shocking can? I have nothing against gays, mind you. Be my friend. I teach you to teach that guy, who broke ur heart, to break his dick. :)

You know. This guy crack me up siakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. And i cant believe i broke up with him. Maybe he make a good friend then a boyfriend? Nonetheless, thank you ah. Kau mmg kawan yg best. Aku suke kawan ngan kau. Kau mesti keep contact ngan aku tau? Lol. Botak botak. As in, he's head not his name.

Ok. Its been tormenting me. Really. Like dammit. Admit it can? I dono why but for some reason, i missed you. Yes. The gila-gila you. Where were you, exactly? I mean, even if you are not in love, or so you said, but at least, let us sisters know. I mean, we are here arent we? But i guess, you just need some time, no? But we do need you too. There's a gap. Really. Come back soon. We love you okay? Ok shit. Why am i crying?

Legally Blonde bebeH!

2005-12-17T22:16:00.000+08:00

whoever says orange is the new pink, is seriously disturbed.

Legelally blonde bebeh!!

Miss them so much.

2005-12-16T10:50:00.000+08:00

Warning this post is dedicated to my dearest family and friendss.

I was looking through the picture albums. And all of the sudden, i miss them. My friends. The pictures we took during sec 2 and the funny little things we used to do. My old friends. The high and low we go together for as long as we live. How time flies........ I got this email from Farhan. Very nice.. (i noe han. everything from you is STANDARD. :)) So i decided to post here. Read it people and pass on. :)

Read Slowly...
Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or Saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?
*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)
*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?
*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?*

People live, but people die. I want to tell you that you are a friend. If you died tomorrow (God Forbid) you would be in my heart. Would I be in yours? If you care about me as much as I care about my fammily. You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next, and don't want to talk at all the year after that. So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life, I look up to you, respect you, truly cherish you , most of all I CARE about friends. Send this to all your friends, no matter how often you talk, or how close you are. Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will. Remember, everyone needs a friend someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, just remember this e-mail and take comfort in knowing somebody out there cares about you and .. always will.. I care about YOU !!

I love you my friends and family. Yes. LOVE!

new, new, new

2005-12-15T16:35:00.000+08:00

yes. you heard it. yes.

i have changed my number people. its, 91187_7_. haha. as u have read in fiqa's blog, call us, gerenti kite angkat. lol lol.

but we are poor starting next yr since we need to pay our own bills and our allowance is not that much really, since we come in two. go figure.

so, DO NOT, i repeat, DO NOT expect me to spent lavishly or have coffee/tea/junkies starting next yr. i wont even have the moolahs to buy you guys, namely my friends, pressies for ur bdae. pardon me, but that just life.

see ya~

Dee's Birthday

2005-12-12T20:40:00.000+08:00

Dee's birthday was 3 days ago. And i finally resized the pictures and they are up for post. It wasnt a 'birthday party'. None of us expected it, but me and fiqa kinda surprise her. Mind you, it was after our NPCC meeting that we had the so-called party. Lol.

Haha. The so-called cake. I told you we didnt plan it. Mum wanted to 'make space' the fridge, so Raya cake is put up for auction! :) *laughs*

And its time to open the present from her none other, beloved brother, Al-hafidz. :) I gave her 7 mths in advance. LOL. Fiqa wanted her present opened discreetly, so i couldnt caupture any pictures. Heh.

Ahh. The joy of being pampered during your birthday. *Winks*

Happy birthday dee.

Work

2005-12-12T10:09:00.000+08:00

Im working. Yes. Got moolah. Yes.

But only for ONE day. NOOO.

*gasps*

My Mom is on Air

2005-12-10T20:48:00.000+08:00

Hahas. My mom is on air with Malik, the DJ on WARNA, a malay radio channel.

LOL.

This is so mad. She never calls when my makcik or in other words, her cousin, is on duty/DJing.

HAHAHAHAHA.

Egads~

2005-12-10T19:27:00.000+08:00

Anyone has the cd of those Shikin/Kito mention at the taggy?

Loan me okay? I hate going to the vcd renting place because the aunty thinks im underage. Yes. Me underage. Get a grip. (I accidentally gave her my hp number which will make me look like Im 13. *shake-head*)

Oh well. Think me, if u happen to bump into those cd.
Muah. Much loved. *winks*

Wronged

2005-12-10T14:08:00.000+08:00

Arghh. Something is wrong with the msn system. Is someone trying to hack my account of something. The moment i logged in, i always logged out magically. Bah.

REMEMBER THE TITANS rock my pinky sockkkkkks!! Gosh that movie was awesome. I was sitting/lying with my sister in the living room eating cocktails, our popcorns. :) I watched the movie TWICE and it still tinggle-ing me.

But it shows that skin colour does not matter at all. Yes. At all. All of us have different abilities and we got to work together to make the great ship sail. Or whatever the sentence need to be. Im so happy that my literature tools is not rusting because, im so sure the next time we see our lit teacher, she'll be hammering with hot questions.

Is there anymore similar movies like this? Apart from Man Of Honour? Keep me updates!

To movies with Hairi And Jahz

2005-12-08T20:46:00.000+08:00

Helo.

Went to the movies with Hairi and Jahz. Planned to have a massive go-out day with everyone, but at last only the 3 of us. So we watched Zathura, a film similarly to Jumanji. But this was better. :) :) Oh yes, I was practically the only one shouting so LOUDLY. Yes. Hairi was scared. Lol Lol.

Afterwards, went to peeweewee (a new vocab, courtesy of Hairi) and ate at Burger Kings'. Was fun fun. I wasnt spose to eat oily food, but Hairi tempt me. Oh well.

Then, took pictures. :) Pics will be posted if anyone of us happens to have a scanner. HAHA.
Then, rush back home, running towards the Somerset Mrt. I didnt lose the bet lar!!!

You farted rite. I noe.

:)

Change blogskins n name

2005-12-04T13:40:00.000+08:00

Well hello.

So many post from me rite? Unbelievavle rite. I noe.

Oh well. Changed blogskin and name. I'll be known as syfz. :)

See ya. Take care.

Luv.

India

2005-12-03T22:21:00.000+08:00

Shall blog abt India. The 1st 2 days only.
Day 1:

Bye Singapore. Me and Fiqa biding our farewells.

My boarding pass cut into quarters.Upon reaching india at night, the cam-whore spirits are unleashed. The malay gals.

Day 2. This is the hotel that we stayed in for the 2 days in Bangalore. We were promised a 3 star hotel. But this looks like 4 star in the inside. Yes. Seriously.

All geared up to go school in India. Cultural Exchange katerkan. ;) The school itself. Do you know that only schildren whose parents are scientist, are able to enroll here? Stylo man. They stay here till 12 grades before going to College or Poly. Pri 1 to Sec 4? Same school? -_-

Thats the AVA room. So cute. Their chairs are definately more comfortable than ours.

Their arts are superbly fantastic. And its not even a compulsory subject yet they are enthusiastic abt it. Wow. But only girls are allowed to do this. Heh.

Thats us. The whole crew. Hehe.

Shall continue again. Im kinda distracted rite now. Hah.

Yey! Internet connection is BACK

2005-12-03T21:43:00.000+08:00

Hah. Yes. Finally I can blog at home. The internet connection is back. Phew~ But i dont know how long it can sustain. Oopps.

Was talking to my dearest galfwen. I couldnt believe it but we actually talked for 45 mins. Yes. Its been months since we last talked that long. What to do. Both of us chatterbox what. Heh. :)

Anyhoos, am I too loud for you? Well, sorry if you cant accept that fact. Im a LOUD person and I love being loud. Sorry if u cant handle my loudness. You can shift far far away, I dont care. Dont ask me to change and stop saying im sensitive. Im sense-positive okay. Loud person is good rather than quiet. Do you know that quiet person is more dangerous than loud person? See. Im not dangerous. You should love that fact. Im totally safe. Oh well. To hell with you for all i care.

I know. Totally irrelevant right?

Home Computer Sucks

2005-12-01T14:04:00.000+08:00

My computer at home is making faults again. I mean, the modem/internet connection. I will not be able to update as much as. Pictures will still be in pending mode as I have no idea how Im going to do that.

Thank you for your consideration. Anything, hit me k?

Lots of love,
Fiza

I'll be back when the time is right. :)

Rumbling Thoughtless Thoughts

2005-12-01T13:36:00.000+08:00

The India trip has taught me a thing or two. Mostly, its about surviving the friendship through the 9 days.

I admit it was definately a rollercoster where trust and close bondings are put up for auction. Yes. Its over and done with. We did our reflection and the little talk we had, had settled the disagreement. Well, that was what I thought too, at first. But it havent dissolve rite?

One thing for sure, that I want you to keep reminded is that, if you want to tell secrets to only one person, and do not want anyone else to know, please do it discreetly. Thank you. Because, it will only erupt suspicion between the rest of us.

I know there is no point in penning all this down, but it seems like there are dissettlement between us. Lets just settle the score for once will you? Stop hiding and saying its okay, but actually its not. Im tired of pretending that everything is okay, im tired of trying to please everyone. Im tired of hiding my true feelings. Too bad if you thing I've change. But I dont think so, In fact, I think/feel Im just finding my true self in this journey called Life.

Ever heard, nothing is constant except Changes?

Yes. I finally got it out of my chest. Im not sorry for being selfish by doing this. But Im sorry that it turn out this way. I make my mistake but i cannot fade it way. Will we be okay? Perhaps like Hermoine Granger said: Everything is gonna change doesnt it?

Im back

2005-11-28T18:45:00.000+08:00

Vanakeeem people~

Yes Yes. India trip is AMAZING and it took my BREATH away. HeeHee. It was enjoyable and it is NOT as bad as you think it is. :) :) I certainly will say out loud: " I LOVE INDIA "... spectacular, indcredible and etc. Harhar..

Pics will be uploaded soon enough IF i have all my time with the comp.

Fastforward, I went to see Harry Potter today. The SECOND time!!!!!!!! The first time was with my eldest at 10 am on Saturday morning. And today, with the movies people. Anyone wanna watch with me again? But you have to splurge on me cos im broke. I spent $30 in 3 days. A double no-no for me given my allowance rate this holiday season. :(

Oh wells, I gave it 2.5 bites out of 5. The ending is sooooooooo dissapointed. Yes. Very. (for those who are Harry Potter Fanatic will agree with me). This is because, alot of things are not inside and the urgeness/energy have evaporated to put it in words.

But it was a nice try. Oh by the way, anyone wanna sell me all the series of harry potter books that are in good condition BUT cheap? Keep me in mind!!!! ( i dont mind if its for my next yr bdae pressie as long as i have all the six books, im in heaven)

Bye Bye Singapore, Hello India

2005-11-17T13:54:00.000+08:00

I will be back on the

25 of Nov 05

im going to India (Bangalore) to have lots of fun..

GoodBye~

Poetic Devices

2005-11-13T16:33:00.000+08:00

oh shucks. The photos of my hari raya-ing isnt uploaded yet. Anyways, here are the poem that is currently in my mind.

Actually, it is a hmwk given by our Magnificient Lit Teacher and Im lazy to think for any magnificient answer, Heh. Answer for me, that is you're smart enough for me ya?

The Unknown Citizen
He was found by the Bureau of Statistics to be
One against whom there was no official complaint,
And all the reports on his conduct agree
That in the modern sense of an old-fashioned world, he was a saint
For everything he did he served the Greater Community.
Except fot the War till the day he retired
He worked in a factory and never got fired
But satisfied his employers, Fudge Motors Inc.
Yet he wasnt a scab or odd in his views
For his union reports that he paid his dues,
(our report on his Union shows it was sound)
And our Socail Psychology workers found
That he was popular with his mate and like to drink
The Press are convinced that he brought a paper everyday
And that his reachtion to advertisement were normal in every way.
Policies taken out on his name prove that he was fully insured
And his Health-card shows he was once in hospital but left it cured.
Both Producers Research and High-Grade Living declare
He was fully sensible to the advantages of the Installment Plan
And had everything necessary to Modern Man,
A phonograph, a radio, a car and a frigidaire.
Our researchers into public opinion for the time of the year
When there was peace, he was for peace, when there was war, he went.
He was married and added five children to the population,
Which our Eugenist says was the right number for a parent of his
generation,
And our teachers report that he never interfered wtih their education.
Was he free? Was he happy? The question is absurd:
Had anything been wrong, we should certainly have heard.

Okay, the question:
1) Why does the State regard the citizen as a 'saint'(line14)
2) What is the poet's attitude towards the state? How do you know this? What is your own impression of the state? Support your answer with evidence.
3) Do you think the citizen was a happy man? Why or Why not? Give reasons to support your points.

hahaha. lazy me. *colin do for me k?*

ok la. buye

Back

2005-11-11T12:13:00.000+08:00

Arghhh. The novelty of writting is very very evaporated. Ya lah. I dono what to blog about. Everything Fiqa blogged ald. So, im left with, nothing. nada. zilch. zero... Hehehe..

But rest assured, to my readers, if u are still reading la... I will find substance to my blog la. I will, I must. muahahhaa. :)

oklah... nth to blog liao.. going to india soon and bla bla bla.. have to get the powerpoint ready and all the hmwrks done... :)

Selamat Hari Raya

2005-11-01T22:03:00.000+08:00

Gonna be on Hiatus bebeh..

Hari Raya is here and I'll be going awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.....

First to- India... Hehehehehehehe.
Second to- Hse to Hse so i can eat all the delicious lontong, ketupat and not forgetting the kuih muihs that will be on the table..

:) :) :)

Selamat Hari Raya, and goodbye the month of Ramadhan. See you again SOON!!

<3

My portfolio

2005-10-31T14:43:00.000+08:00

In school rite now.. Doing the ePortfolio.. A project given by the MOE something something. Sheesh.. Dont no what to do anymore. There are currently 7 chapters in my life.. and 22 topics or so. Somemore what to rite??

Hmm.. Wanna hear a joke? Warning... Its very Lame...

"What door that, even 10 people also cannot push?"

The truth hurts, but reality bites. :)

On the lighther side, to all muslimin and muslimat, Selamat Hari Raya. I wanna beg for forgiveness for whatever wrongdoing I did to anyone of you guys reading this or my friends. Last but not least, Happy Hols and dont forget to do your homework ahhh!! :)

<3

Hols Homework

2005-10-30T20:40:00.000+08:00

Ok. I finished-ing my pyhsic soon. Chemistry...haiyoooooo. Ok la. In the middle of doing.

Right now Im doing my English homework. 3 book review, 400 words each. Can die rite? Gagagagaga...

And im busy chatting with friends. No time can?

Blaearghhhh..

newness

2005-10-29T17:36:00.000+08:00

Yayness. Finally. I have changed my blogskiin leee.. *phew* no more naggings can Mr punat himself. *lalalalala*

Btw, got back all the results and I think I did fairly well. :D Haha.. Should strive harder. Talking about striving, teachers are giving pile of homeworks to be done during this long break. (Farhan, ur break how long?) 2 mths work of paperworks and projects. Sheesh. To make it more worse, its indivivual. *sadness*

Currently finishing all my Combined Science (my fav. subj of the mth) by this monday. Have to pass up by next friday wad. Hari Raya you noe.. :( so sad la..

but oh wells.

Over and done with it

2005-10-17T12:31:00.000+08:00

Can I shout?

ITS OVER~~

Lalalalala. Exams are over....BUT... result will be out in 3 days time. 0.0

Anw, got to go back to school during the Marking Papers. Shesshh. For our An Enemy of The People. Its the WHOLE sec 3 express combination. Hopes it all goes well.

To leaders of each class, meeting 7.25 AM..
To 3e3, meet same time at 7.25 AM.
To the rest of the classmates meet at 9.

:) :) Ok? Anything call my hse.

<3

Weee. Tempted temptation

2005-10-13T14:28:00.000+08:00

Yeah!! I left only 3 papers. And they are Literature, FnN and Physics.

:) Exams are "over". Im so happy.

Today was maths paper. Shld say it was easy peasy, but I dun want to get too over-confident. Heh. :)

I have nothing to blog about. Hows ya all? Ade baik? (Now i sound like Hasri) Yikes~

Selamat berpuase korang korang. Jgan puase yok yok tau. Nanti kene pukol ngn sendok!!

my fingers itched

2005-10-05T23:26:00.000+08:00

ahaha. how lame and how people reacts sometyms brought me to my tears. tears of sarcasm of cos.

when one ppl, make a comment, the other hurt party will also give a comment BASE on one's feelings. then, the OTHER PARTY, meaning the friend's of the writer, will certainly AGREES with whatever his/her friends says. ISNT that dumb. period.

whose truth is the truth? just bcos, the majority FELT that it is the truth, DOESNT mean THAT is the truth. see. understand. statement. EVIDENCE~!

to passerby on zul's blog/tagboard. everyone is childlike. NO ONE is TOTALLY GROWN UP. the word grown up is so ironic. TELL ME ARE YOU GROWN UP? physically yes but not mentally.

im done.

p/s: i noe i shldnt blog. but its so tempting when someone make my twin tick. latas everyone. my paper start 2mrw. =)

Hiatus (Final Year Exams)

2005-09-20T19:45:00.000+08:00

goodbye world.
goodbye keyboard.
goodbye blogspot.

will be on hiatus.
a long one that is.
final year exams.

wish me lucks. <3

:)

Friends or Foe

2005-09-19T22:34:00.000+08:00

What can i say? Easy come easy goes.

Was running ard the whole school today. The people who was suppose to take video, all cabot and run away. Poor Ms Debbie have to find substitute. W/O saying can noe who le mah. I think she was quite pissed la.

Anyways, congratulations to Happy Fish aka Hui Yu for winning the Second position. I am proud of you man! You were perspiring badly hah? Relax. :)

Here's the poem of friendship I wrote a few days back.

"Friends come and go
This you should noe
dont be a bodo,
If staying means no.

If pple dont appreciate
just go and apparate
dont wait till its too late
or your heat will break

some people don like you
some people do.
thats how life revovles
every problems can solve

that is what friendship means
going thru thick and thin
only true friends,
leave footprints..."

bloody copyrighted by me!! :) quite meaningful eh? Haha.

:)

Poem Freak

2005-09-18T19:10:00.000+08:00

I wrote 2 poems. but shy la want to post.

hehe. Maybe next tym ok?

:)

Survivathon 2005 at Chung Cheng High Sch

2005-09-17T20:24:00.000+08:00

Today I met Nazirul Mubin Bin somethingsomething. My very first male-bestfriend!! Although, we have seperated for many many years, we didnt ran out of words to talk. He's tall, tan, no more the atuk2 kinda thing and his in NPCC. Oh, he's schooling in Telok Kurau Sec. And I forgot to ask for his email add so we can keep in contact. Haiz.

Fiqa picture is in the newspaper, Berita Harian. (a malay newspaper) Her baby steps towards stardom. :)

Today, I studied. Yesh. For the Friday Revision Test. :) Yey.

20 more days to Final Year. *screams*

Yescom Dinner and AEOP

2005-09-14T19:22:00.000+08:00

Im so elated. We won. Damn. We won. We, the freaking INE and non-INE won the Yescom Competition. The competition sponsored by Kesuma and the Berita Harian (a malay newspaper).. Haha. Our position, 6th out of 20 schools. Not bad ey? But the clear winner is the kiddies from the primary school. :) They were the one (actually only the malay girl laaa) that visited our stall every minute or so so talk to us. She is sweet and definately bubbly. I was so happy that they won.. And the Bedok North didnt clinched anything.. Its sad, but oh well. And yah, we make friends with this Majusri Sec boys who are ermm..very very small. And they cheered for us, vice versa. =) Congrats to Shawn Tan, Maimunah, Jie Hao, Me, Fiqa and last but not least, the beauty among us, Nadiah!! We did well despite the fightings and the quarrels. ~~WE WON YOU GODDAMIITTS!!~~ Pictures will be updated in due time. *waits for shawn's email*

Our Enemy of the People, is not bad. We are definately progressing with the costumes and all. Its shld have been like this the last tym. But its better than laaateerrr rite? :) :) So proud of all of us. We got things done nice and quick. Hopefully, we all dont panic untill forgot our lines ya? Wishing you all the luccccccccccccckkk!

Friendster has changed its layout again. Blearghh. Its more confusing now. But i guess its because, im friendster illiterate? Heh!

Ok chiow ppl. Gotto do my work now. See ya~

2005-09-12T19:24:00.000+08:00

Heh!

Exams in like 3-4 weeks time? What the hell!

got malay hmwk. I havent do.

ARGH.

k. bye

enjoy ur life ppl while i suffer. *smirks*

No idea

2005-09-09T19:50:00.000+08:00

I have no idea what to blog. Seriously. I've been staring at this page for full ten mins. My fingers felt numb.

Maybe its because of the situation I felt two hour plus plus ago.

Dear you,
I hope you are okay. The after-the-Mcdonalds thingy was so uncalled. Dont be sad la kay. Guys are so _______. Cheer up. Today is just not your day. Call me up if you feel like talking ok? Your mood is affecting me too. Gimme a smile if you happen to read this post.

Dearest you,
I hope you are okay too. Dont stress up too much about the 4th-Sept thingy okay? You'll be fine. :)

Im done. Nothing much to say. Will update you guys once I find substance for my writting~

Pictures of the us in P.Semakau

2005-09-06T17:31:00.000+08:00

Here are the pictures of the pulau semakau triip. nth to do lar.. :)

Its us!

That's Fiqa. Finding animals i think!

Shikin and me in the bus. Bored~

Colin and me kissing. Yesh!!

Illegal immigrant la. Haha.

I love this pic alot.

Thats all. Haha. The rest of the pictures censored la. :) :)

p/s: anyone e3 going for the Sentosa trip?

Tired

2005-09-06T17:25:00.000+08:00

im tired. very mentally tired.

let nature take its course.

ya. i give no efforts in it. i admit. y? im just tired.

too tired to do anything.

im too suffering frm this long-hiatus-pause-myt-be-permanent frienship.

but im just to tired to relieve the past. im moving foward without looking back.

is that wrong?

Changed skin

2005-09-06T16:47:00.000+08:00

I've changed my skin due to naggings frm someone. *points to erlynna*

Haha. Oh well.

I've learnt that, to supress anger, you gotta love. no sense ryt. I noe.

atta ya'all~

Happy Day

2005-09-03T19:14:00.000+08:00

Im a proud owner of a new pair of slippers. HAHA.

Im so cashness now. I have gotten my payment!! Being a tutor ROCKS! Yey!

gonna shop more tomorow. yesh.

yeah. all my wishlist can be burn now!

:) It definately lift my spirit up.

Me, against 41.

Happy and Sadness filled me

2005-09-02T21:20:00.000+08:00

Holidays are here! Hooorayyy!!

Haha. What can I say.. Hmmm. The teacher-visiting is definately enjoyable and fun. But it could have been better if the whole gang came. That includes u, Hafiz and the list goes on on on....

Talking to Saiful now. We are debating and it looks like we can bite each other heads off. Oh well. HAHA.

We have proved to you that we can do 120 push ups in that spot. So, who dare say we not strong? Im not blaming u all. As i have said outside the cadet room door, we all love you and we just want you to love us back only.

I love you guys k. =)

So many stuffs

2005-08-29T22:41:00.000+08:00

Its been sometimes since I last blogged due to the activities and a play that requires my upmost attention. Jeez. Well, alot of happened recently. Rekindled of friendship, and bla bla bla. And I shall just summarise it.

The play (An Enemy of the People) I should say that we are progressing, but slowly that is. I just cant understand why you dont want to go with my idea: Just to zoom in, in the characters' point of view. But I guess, the Joseph people know more of this stuff than Video Club people. So, I hope it turns out well as you'll have realise, we are left with less than a week to finish the whole play production. Wishing you the best, director.

The teacher-student idol is well, most appreciated by the tanglinians, heh? Surprise surprise, all the performance are made up of the Upper Sec Studs. The Lower Sec died I guess. But I really wonder, what will happen after all of the enthusiasm people have graduated? *think of the geeks & nerds* Haha. Okayy, that is wayyy beyong my point. I hope everything goes well and hopefully, on that day there will be no, I repeat no technical problems ey?

The student councilors, as I speak, are rushing through their homeworks and getting the Teacher's Day items ready. Its tough because, Tanglin is not known for its co-operativeness. I remembered that time, one teacher said, "Tanglin is still as unorganized..." Well, double doom for us then. I have been rushing for the votes, the plagues and the stuffs. Even the giant card is in a mess. I just cant seem to understand why the Sec 2 councilors is so, so, so..... undescriable. I cant believe she has the cheek to speak behind her own friends. Uggh. I hate it when soneone tries to backstab the other. I mean, ohh. I duno what Im trying to conclude here.

As I had mention, in my tagboard, we had rugby match against the 3e1 during Thursday's recess. It was fun because it looks like a real match. Not to mention the number of crowds that sat by the seatings there. Heh. I was told that there was a mini gambling that took place. It was a rough game and eventually, the winner is us. Thanks to Happy Fish and Shannen. We are thinking of having another friendly match, after all of us have healed that is. Thankfully, the 3e1 studs are not sore-losers and boy, we had fun didnt we girls? Hee-Hee.

My results have been poor and good in a sense. I have improved on my combine science which i hope is a B3 according to my calculations, and an A for my literature. I have slacked in Maths according to Ms Debbie, which saddens me the most because they are my top piority now. I have put in effort to improve, but I guess, the maths grades like their present state huh? Okay, enough of the blues la..

Thanks goodness all the cat fights have ended. And no more cold shoulders. I just hope she wont forget me since the rekindling of the lost-then-found friendship with her and him.

I cant wait for the teacher's day celebration because I really wanna prove to her that this year batch of councilors is the CAN-MAKE-IT-ONE!

Ok. The End! Go tag noww.. :)

Yaya Papaya

2005-08-22T20:52:00.000+08:00

So ~~fucking~~ great. None of my group members (literature grp) can meet my dateline. Why? Some of you may ask. U see, the whole project is suppose to hand in on Thurs. But apparently, Im not good in last minute work and I have my own personal time to take care of. The work was given on Friday and I asked them to hand in to me by Monday. Not unreasonable aye? All yaya papaya say okay. Now, I've been sitting in front of my oh-so-lovely-comp for 3 hrs. Patiently waiting. Im not being difficult you noe. This is for the best, if you finish earlier, you got more time for yourself ryt? But, sadly, Im the only one in the group who can forsee this. I wish I could choose my grp members. Now, that is a wish that I wish would come true.

Anyways..Teachers' Day is coming. And Im thinking of going back there. Saiful is planning all this. Haha. Poor guy, left clueless. We will be picnic-king under the void deck playing true or dare. No, dont get us wrong. We are not the minah-mat who spent their time under void decks. Its just that we have no place to go and I suggest we have picnic. (meaning, there will be basket of food for us to gobble. yey.) We went McDonalds last yr.. -_-" Long story.... So, anyone interested? Only open to the pri-sch members. Tag, see left!

Btw, there is this temporary Police post under my blog there there. Hehe. All the men in blue uniforms.. Kak Rai's heaven. I wonder how she is doing. Hmm.

What the F**K. Still no literature work? #$%^& Wam ba dan! Ni men chi Si!!

2005-08-20T21:53:00.000+08:00

C-tea, Me, Fiqa

Kiss me! Me!

Pictures, I adore them!

2005-08-17T22:10:00.000+08:00

Boohoo. Cry with me fellas. Or rejoice if so.

A. maths paper was definately a killer. I was killed and still determined to be alive again. I sat on the chair and thought, "God, gimme a distinction for this." But soon I realise, it was just wishful thinking. Its saddening because I spend 2 freaking days to study for it. And none, nada-zilch-zero, of what I study came out in the paper. Like fiqa said, absolutely no absolute. I almost bawl my eyes. Dont give up. All the way. Anyone seconds to my decision?

I am getting-planning-acheiving to get As for all my subjects too. I AM!

Wish me lucks.

2005-08-09T12:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Singaporeee!!

And I will be back again someday.

Common test is here and so the so-called retest for sergeant. ArghHH! Liar liar pants on fire. I tot we took it already?

Bitch is the word!!!! $%^&*#@!!

Hiatus~

2005-08-05T12:50:00.000+08:00

Weee. In school comp lab now. Ms Chin and Mdm Hasnira is not here. So a relief techer came. She is SO sweet, her face I mean. She's so cool. Aww man. If she is a teacher in this school, I would definately LOVE her. She is so TEENAGER.. I loike her alot!! :) :) :) Its a happy day.

We played rughby just now during P.E. It was the best game ever, to us girls la. The boys were badly bruised as they had a match with the 3n3 students. Rough game; mouth bleeding, legs ozzing with blood, head probbing, etc. So anyway, I hugged Hui Yu aka Happy fish and push her down on the field. Just like the actions in Smallville. Shannen butt kena smack by the hard floor. :) :) see, I told you it was a happy day~

Maths paper rock my world. It so freaking nice. I wont say its easy coz I dunwan to be over-confident. :) Hopefully, all ends well. All ends well.

Btw, Aidil, Bjorn, Justine and Javier kena scold by Ms Solastri during our literature period. Haha. It is definately a happy day.

:)

2005-08-04T08:22:00.000+08:00

Im at comp lab now! Studying for the upcoming test. SCREAMSSS!! I have no freaking idea of what to dp. Just wish me lucks k. That will so, so do me good.

Ahhh damn. I forgot to bring my allowance to school today. ShYT!! Oh well. Leila come to my rescue anyway, she gave me KITKAT which I enchanged for a SNICKERS with Ctea. She can be a BIG BABY when she dont get what she wants. HAHA. I hope you reading this hon!! :) *looks right*

Oh.. Geog test is also today. Screw me Screw me... :( So sad I didnt even study last night for the two tests. Haix. Lazyy piggy piggy meeee~~

I didnt even do my maths homework.. WHHOPPS.. Gonna copy it during recess and study for Geog simultaneously. :(

Its a sad day today.